Sometimes I wonder why I even bother trying. Can’t live with ‘em, can’t live without ‘em. Can’t figure them out either.
“What future bride? I’ve looked high and low for someone I can love and adore and cook waffles for.” - How I Met Your Mother
You know you’ve found a good group of friends when they’re good at supporting you AND challenging you.
I’m oddly content right now…enjoying it all while it lasts.
It is 2:40 am on Valentine’s Day and I’m still wide awake. I’m just gonna go with a stream of consciousness flow on this entry, so forgive me if it isn’t all coherent and written in a proper way. I guess it’s almost fitting that I’m on night owl status right now. It’s been exactly 6 years now since the last time Valentine’s Day actually meant something to me. I promised myself I wasn’t going to feel emo today and treat V-Day like it was just another day, but I guess my willpower decided to take the day off. I hate the feeling of everyone passing me by while I’m stuck in neutral. Some of my closest friends have told to stay patient and that my time will eventually come, but I’m getting to a certain point where I’m impatiently looking up at a proverbial clock and thinking, “When?” Seeing people “announce” relationships/engagements/marriages on Facebook is such a bittersweet task for me.
It is now 2:50 am on Valentine’s Day and I’m still wide awake…
It feels good to reconnect with friends who were once considered “lost”. Life’s too short to hold grudges against certain people.
For me, 2012 was a year filled with some of the highest of highs and the lowest of lows. It may have essentially been a “bipolar” year, but it was still a good one. I think I really learned some good lessons in 2012.
It’s crazy how much attention I actually pay nowadays to trying to be more healthy. 10 years ago, I really took a lot of this stuff for granted, but now that I’m in my mid-30’s, I’ve realized how much more maintenance I’ve gotta perform on my jalopy of a body now.
When I’m sitting at home feeling emo and I have access to a car, sometimes I like to just go on random drives with no clear destination. There’s something oddly soothing about doing so.
So, umm yeah…life is pretty good right now. Nice change-up from how I was feeling a couple of months ago. Enjoying it while it lasts.